Monday, June 13, 2005

Downpour ©S.O. Spencer


Downpour ©S.O. Spencer
Originally uploaded by pencil to paper.

Friday, June 10, 2005

Sigh...

I'm completely infatuated with Howard Roark. I met him a few weeks ago in Ayn Rand's classic novel, "The Fountainhead." It took a long time to finally sit down and read this book, but once I did I could not put it down.

Rand's description of what she wanted her character, Roark, to be: The noble soul par excellence. The man as man should be. The self-sufficient, self-confident, the end of ends, the reason unto himself, the joy of living personified. Above all--the man who lives for himself, as living for oneself should be understood. And who triumphs completely. A man who is what he should be."

Following Roark through his life is difficult because people are against him from the beginning. They don't understand his lack of care for the opinions of others. They don't understand why he doesn't pander to the masses for their approval. But he is unfaltering in his convictions.

For me, he is an ideal to aspire to.

Tuesday, May 31, 2005

Been Away So Long...

Had a most outstanding vacation through the western part of this beautiful country. We landed in San Francisco, rented bikes and rode them over the Golden Gate Bridge, rented a car and drove northbound on the Shoreline Hwy., communed with ancient redwoods and eventually landed in Seattle where we climbed up Mt. Ranier. Not to the top of course (that takes more skill than I posess) but the experience was still terrific. And the view...beyond words.

Monday, May 16, 2005

Good ol' freedom

An important quote by an important man. It is just as true and relevent today.

"He who would trade an ounce of freedom for a pound of security loses both
and deserves neither." -- Benjamin Franklin


Suggested Readings:
George Orwell's "1984"

The similarities between Orwell's fiction and today's facts are astounding.

Thursday, May 12, 2005

Time


Shadows ©s.o. spencer
Originally uploaded by pencil to paper.
Watching your loved ones grow older sucks. It seems cancer has taken over a large part of my life because it has taken over the lives of both my parents and my grandmother! They are all dealing with it in their own way but I know it's hard on them. I live far away from them which doesn't help and sometimes makes me feel guilty. Maybe I should go home and help take care of them all? When I was growing up in that small town I couldn't wait to get out. I never thought about all the people I'd leave behind. I just assumed that was life. The baby bird leaves the nest and the parents move on to the next stage of their own lives. Unfortunately the next stage for my parents was one of health problems. They are both 56, which seems young to be dealing with all this trauma but I know cancer can affect people at any time in life. I wanted great travels for my parents. They have both worked hard their entire lives and now all this happens. Mom's first battle with cancer started five months after I moved out of state. I have been in Florida working throughout their illnesses. Of course I've gone home to help when I can but I feel perhaps that is not enough. I don't think anything I do could ever be enough for all they've done for me. To paraphrase Buddha; 'You could carry your parents on your back for the rest of your life and it would not be enough to repay them for all they've done for you.' I've offered to move home but they've insisted that is not what they want. They want me to "live my life and be happy." Easier said than done when your loved ones are struggling.

Wednesday, May 11, 2005

Decisions


Tree ©s.o.spencer
Originally uploaded by pencil to paper.
Oh, how rash decisions were so much easier to make when I was younger. But the time has come to decide: do I continue with the path I'm on now, which provides a certain amount of security and a certain amount of contentment, or do I take the leap and return to college to work towards my masters degree? I think I'm ready for something new. And since I would be returning on the university's dime, I think I should jump at the opportunity. To paraphrase Helen Keller; 'what is life if not a daring adventure?' I believe it is time to wander off the path.